Dream Or Real

What Means for DREAM??
&
what means for REAL
The Thing u will have it when u sleeping??
i really don't know what was the different for it!!
I can confirm that i love her lot BUT,
why i feel that she will be with me,
Accompany me,
care me,
talk to me
all was just like a dream.
But maybe now i still in the dream
not yet wake up
Izzit once i wake up all of it was already gone??

I really very scare that she will leave me alone
izzit i think too much??
Or She really will be with me for a long time??
I can sure that she will be the only one who in my heart
and the thing i promise her i will do it
and i will prove it to her that i really serious to her
i won't let her get hurt anymore
Just will let her get love from me

But now i really scare i will lose her
i scare she will leave me
scare she don't wan be with me
but izzit i think too much ???
should i forget for everything and just let it be??

Suddenly feel that the distance between me and her become very far
far till i don't know how to explain
i scare she will become another her
scare at the end i will get hurt like last time
Why the JunXian right now become so weak
and keep scare this and that
i think i really change lot
i really become scare for a fake relationship
scare get fool by some1
izzit just because last time i keep fool around then this was the thing i get??

I really need let my brain stop thinking of it
just let it be
and cool down
and find back the JunXian


I LOVE YOU LOT
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